Okay.. So this has to be one of the worst days ever of the past few weeks i can remember. I almost feel like throwing up at the thought how sh*t of a day it has been.. I dont resort to prafanities much even when i am in a helpless situation but today has to be one of those one off days when even profanities cannot help me calm down.. I am just not able to focus on my work or my home. My home or house rather looks like a dungeon and i have no energy to bring order to this CHAOS. When i am cleaning the house OA says why are u cleaning? and .. dont come near my work station.. and today he stood and pointed out how sh*t the house looks like and that i will feel better if i clean.. I mean seriously? Talk about men!
But i seriously cannot clean this up. What worries me the most is that my office work has piled up and i just cannot bring myself to get out of this block to get this going. On top of it i have an expensive exam that i bought fpr $450 at the beginning of the year and i need to get it done with next week. I am cursing myself for having spent so much money for something i have no interest in. I bought it under pressure hoping for better job prospects if i pass it. Well the chances of me passing this exam are 0%. U ask Why? because i just have not prepared anything.. I am so $%^&E* up!!!
I seriously need some divine intervention to keep me going ..But JK Rowling said the power is within us.. i just cant seem to find it yet !!! 😦